Mia Lourdes

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The normal answer will be, “myself.” But what do you do when “myself” becomes “ugly, hideous, & self-hate?” Unsure of the answer?

We all become more self-conscious because this is what our society does. We all see the flaws in ourselves. How could this be? How can one person look in the mirror and see someone disgusting when most of the time people see someone amazing.

When I used to look in the mirror, I’m not going to lie, but I saw someone ugly. I thought that was it. I’m done. I won’t ever feel beautiful. I will forever be ugly. I thought that I was going to be an ugly duckling forever. We all know how the ugly duckling turns out. The ugly duckling becomes a beautiful swan. It took time for me to look in the mirror again.

When I did though, I looked at myself. What the? What happened to the ugly duckling? What happened to me? Who is this person and why isn’t it me?

State the obvious moment. It was me.

That was me. Me! In the mirror! That’s me and only me. Sweet clementine, that it is, me.

Who is this person and why all of a sudden do I feel happier?

I stopped a tiny bit of caring how ugly I can be.. to someone who loves themselves. I was happy with how I looked and how I felt about it.

I remember one time, I was talking to an old friend of mine back in Middle school (Shout out to Chelsea M). This conversation happened about a few months ago. She told me how I didn’t care what others thought and that I was just happy. It shocked me because I never thought I left that impression on someone. I was too busy caring about God knows what to realize… I was always happy from the beginning. It took me a few years of self hating to realize… back then. I was happy with just who I was. I’m still happy and I hope to leave that impression on others from now on.

It takes time for some people to just stop and look at yourself whole hearty. Sometimes it takes a little push, a big push from a friend, or just growing to love oneself.

Your self-esteem won’t come from body parts. You need to step away from the mirror every once in a while, and look for another reflection, like the one in the eyes of the people who love you and admire you.
Stacy London